You do not need to escape from the world in order to gain insight into its fundamental nature.
It is enough simply to live your life and learn, by being here and paying attention.
Everything you are seeking -- insight, understanding, fulfillment and completeness -- is inherent within the present moment.
None depends upon external circumstance.
Find the still, clear, undisturbed field of awareness within which your identity resides, and everything will be revealed as a dynamic manifestation and reflection of this.